MY Heart Stops For You

Wed, 13 Apr 2005 23:58:44 GMT

hey everyone...well not tomuch going on here, but life is awesome, god is amazing, and man racing is going good. well ive been looking for a special someone, and i havent found one but theres no one at simi thats great anyways but i know there is someone out there so im not even worring...haha. um well church has been awesome, my friends are great, i love troy, pat, david, megan, katie, and trent. there my good friends. hahah its funny tho..i thought these past couple weeks i had some close people in my life but they really didnt care,,so i actually see who my real friends r and thats why i dont really talk much or try and make an effort with the others cause, whats the point. they dont care i shouldnt. but i do...and thats a good thing tho, cause at least someone does..but i still dont talk to them ..lol. so anyways ive been training everyday, i have a friend to train with now, and ive been practicing every weekend now..so im so happy life is back to normal.

- cory..

p.s. i hate girls...lol not all tho.

Thu, 07 Apr 2005 00:47:34 GMT

hey everyone..well life is so good, god and me are so close and im living every second of my life for him. well i met a girl, idk where it will go. but im hanging with her this weekend. well i cant wait for africa..haha i cant wait..man god is so good.

i love him. JESUS that is

cory

Sat, 02 Apr 2005 06:47:16 GMT

man i love life...i realize things are great and god is great and theres nothing more to life than god. wooooooohooooooooo i love life..yeah i have my down times but u know what i freaking love god and he is so good.

cory <3

Wed, 30 Mar 2005 09:20:48 GMT

you ever get the feeling someone is trying to get a point across, but is not coming out and saying it. haha. horrible feeling. well i feel like crap inside....my chest feels like its in knots. well i feel distant from all my friends but one. my best friend..well i think hes my best friend, doesnt act like it, doesnt do anything with me anymore. i guess he has better things to do. im really sick and tired that i cant get over this girl. OH i want to get over her,cause my feelings are onesided,,and plus i think its really screwing up our friendship, bigtime . i feel im just bugging her, and like she cant even see us hanging out and being normal friends, which is the worst thing to hear from someone u care about so much, which just make me even sadder.why do i even try, idk. well idk why im writing on here,,u people dont care about my problems nor do u want to care, just like everyone of my friends.

Tue, 29 Mar 2005 01:36:06 GMT

hahha...i love walking up to someone and saying...your a penis, and then walk away like nothing happend.

well i get my permit wensday...hahaha..i know i waited so long to drive but oh well. um i have no plans for spring break. i really want to ride my motorcycle, im hooked.!!!! miss church, wish i could live there. miss a lot of things these days, to much on my mind right now, but i cant wait to train, its my way of clearing my head. everything thats on my mind just slips away...oh its so good!!!!! mhmmm. well i dont know what else to write about, um no one in my life ( girl wise) um been riding a lot. god is really strong in my life, cant wait for africa, and well a lot of reflecting on past momments lately.

hahh...well anyway i know no one reads these but oh well i dont care.

cory.

Mon, 28 Mar 2005 04:54:43 GMT

URGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IT'S KILLING ME INSIDE.
MASKING IT HURTS MORE.
HIDDING IT SEEMS SELFISH.
SHARING IT SEEMS CHILDISH.

SO I BOTTLE IT UP INSIDE.
FOR SOMEDAY I MIGHT BE ABLE TO SHARE IT.
THE HOPE IS GONE,
BUT FOR SOME REASON
I HAVE SOME.

LOVES IN THE OTHER DIRECTION
AND IM IN THE DARK.
BEING MYSELF IS ALL I CAN DO,
HIDING MY LOVE IS ALL I CAN AFFORD TO LOSE.

DAMN THIS SUCKS.
IT HURTS TO THING ABOUT,
WHAT WAS SO GOOD IS NOW GONE,
AND I CANT HELP BUT FEEL SORRY FOR MYSELF.
WHAT CAN I DO, NOTHING.....!!!!! THATS THE P0INT

( AND NO THIS ISNT A SONG OR A DAMN POEM....I JUST FELT LIKE WRITING IT THIS WAY AND NOT IN A PARAGRAPH)

-CORY

Wed, 23 Mar 2005 02:38:08 GMT

well hello everyone.

life you ask? hahaha....
well my life is stressing, the only thing that i look forward to is GOD. He is the only constant in my ever changing life. im so thankful i have him !!!!!!!! its not that life is bad, its just im so busy with school ( understatement) and other things, i have no time to enjoy myself. When i find a small amount of time to go ride my motorcycle, its raining, and a lot of the time i had was occupied but not now cause i have focused on other things. i have been trying to fix my schedule to focus on road biking more and training but i havent been able to get time to do that..so this break next week..guess where ill be..hahahaha riding my roaded bike..yes!!!!!

im also going to get some much needed time with my sister..i need to spend some good quality time with her,,i feel so bad i see her only a couple times a week and when i do im so busy, and i miss playing those fun games with her, and just hangingout with my little sister. well in other news..not much is going on, social life is at a low, dont get to do that much, so now when i get the chance im going to make sure im with the people that i need to hangout with the most. um the girl front is lacking, no one in my life.....um other than that i guess things are ok..but there is one thing...i miss her a lot ...not my ex,,,but someone else...i havent seen her in awhile and i have some feelings for her not much but anough to make me think about her...well ive always have had feelings for her...ahahah..just didnt say anything.

well for now im out .

cory- mike

Sun, 20 Mar 2005 20:28:10 GMT

i hope.....i hope she becomes 100% cause i miss her.

cory

this song reminds me of whats going on in my life

Sat, 19 Mar 2005 23:31:29 GMT

Daughters

I know a girl
she puts the color inside of my world
But she's just like a maze
where all of the walls all continually change
and i've done all i can
To stand on her steps with my heart in my hands
now i'm starting to see
Maybe it's got nothing to do with me

Fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mother's, be good to your daughters too

oh you see that skin?
It is the same she's been standing in
Since the day she saw him walking away
Now she's left
Cleaning the mess up

Mon, 14 Mar 2005 00:54:22 GMT

really really happy..

well people i final have her. the girl i like so much and that means so much to me. allie and i are offical and im loving every momment of it.!!!!
she is so awesome and its amazing how much we enjoy eachother, i am really happy things happend the way they did. =)

i cant stop thinking about her <3333333333

cory

Wed, 09 Mar 2005 06:04:39 GMT

well ok so ...yeah so this girl who i like a lot ..well she likes me back, and im gunna pop the big ? soon. and well man i cant even say it enough we r so good with eachother, we connect so well and r just ment for eachother. im really happy and i know this is what i have been waiting for , that special girl <3333333333333333333333

Fri, 04 Mar 2005 00:57:24 GMT

well things are great, i like a girl and she likes me.<3333 and i thinking about asking the big ? but im might give it sometime ...u know that special momment i want it to be special. im not waiting cause im unsure..no no..im waiting cause i want it to be the perfect time. well i got a new truck..woooohoooooo. im going to africa....woooooooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhoooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

man times are great....

i freaking miss her!!!!! she completes me!!!!!!!!!!!!!
<333333333

cory.

KINDA GAY ...YA KNOW ?

Mon, 28 Feb 2005 00:32:59 GMT

KINDA HUNGRY
KINDA THIRSTY
KINDA HAPPY
KINDA SAD CAUSE I DIDNT GET TO RIDE MY MOTORCYCLE
KINDA GROSSED OUT
KINDA WANT TO HAVE DIFFERENT HAIR
KINDA HOT
KINDA WANT TO SEE FERONA VEI
KINDA WANT TO SCREAM
KINDA ANNOYED
KINDA WANT TO GO TO AFRICA RIGHT NOW
KINDA WANT TO PEE
KINDA WANT A GIRL
KINDA REALLY WANT TO PEE
HOLD UP...GOT TO PEE
BACK
KINDA JUST FARTED
WOW KINDA BORED WITH THIS
.

CORY.

Mon, 21 Feb 2005 07:46:59 GMT

well here i go. things are ok i guess...man i have been doing a lot of thinking. a lot of what if's and what not's. times are ok..could be better. well im starting to like someone..but idk. shes really cool and all but idk if she is for me. i hate this rain i wish it would go away, damn it i want to ride my new motorcycle. well i met a group of friends through my friends and i started to get close to some of them but honestly i think they all could careless about me..i really do. ive been hurt, made fun of, ignored, and vorenable with these people. sometimes i wish i didnt know them,,but then other times i do. it pretty much just goes back to the fact that things well my things were layed out on the table by someone at one point, which i cared for more than the world, and after that things well lets just put it this way i dont trust them as fare as i can throw them.i so wish otherwise tho..i really do. i cant believe sometime that if i just asked her that one little question...things would be so different,,i would have never been hurt, would have had a relationship and most of all would have had a close friend. now it just seems that where ever i turn i have to watch my back with these people...they just rubed me the wrong way, and im affriad its going to happen again. i really really dont think any of them give a crap about me, and even my best friend has no time for me anymore. ya know everything we deceided we would do together hasnt happend, he is off on his own and not including me..=/ man i just wish things were different. i hope this michelle thing works..cause i need someone to turn to..i mean i have to great girls jessica, and katie who will be there for me no matter what but i dont have the person to share that kiss after im sad with or to cuddle with me when im down. i hate the fact that i have to sound mean to this girls i once was so nice to...i just dont trust them,,,i try to be myself but i just cant get the thought out of my head that they dont care about me..!! man what am i going to do..really.

=/ cory

Mon, 14 Feb 2005 05:01:57 GMT

=/ sucks when you think you can trust your friends, but that trust that you give them is taken for granite and stretched to the point of just saying no more. i wish i never said anything, done anything, expressed my feelings. i have only gotten negative things from being nice, and i realized something, if your nice to a person, and only bad things are coming out of them, its time to take a step back from them and just see what kind of a friend they really are. i must say, people can play some crazy games sometimes and i hate it!!!!!!!!!

-cory mike-

Sun, 13 Feb 2005 05:34:55 GMT

well i finaly got it.!!! my new MOTORCYCLE. yes!!! im so excited..back to racing i go..and having a life to. well things r great, lifes good. no girl in my life, but thats ok..i dont like anyone at this point..and im dead serious i dont..which is a good thing. im not to worried about a girl right now..im just like well when it happens it happens..but anyway im going to the races tomorrow..no im not racing *tears* but my dad is and i love the races so it will be a blast. anyway, my friends are great, things are looking really good.

she cant see me,,and i cant see her, but i know she is out there. E>

-cory-

Sat, 12 Feb 2005 00:55:48 GMT

well im in trouble now..not so much my parents..they just said i cant go the movies tonight..but with school im in big trouble..so this kid was drunk in my second period and i took some pics of him and well i got caught and had to go turn my phone into the office..well i had other plans..lol!!! my friend has office practice that period and well i just had him write me a fake note..so now i got caught and my dad had to talk to the principle and this sucks.!! it rained today, boooo..

i want to go to the movies..but i cant ..what about of crap.!!

miss my mom ..i wish she was home and she would have taken care of this mess i would still be able to go to the movies.

cory.

Thu, 10 Feb 2005 01:10:40 GMT

okay..so..well im bored..really bored!!
school is boring, and so is everything else.
school today was good, better then yesterday. i wasnt so tired today at school which was actually a relief. hmm..what else. oh yeah!! i have nothing to do this weekend so if anyone wants to hangout im all for it.

hmmm..well lets see, i feel like im drifting away from acouple of my friends..well more just like one friend.

cant wait tell that ktm is in my hands.!!!!

i want some animal crackers. well the rock was so good last night, i think mark really did a great job speaking. worship was awesome..like always. im so glad to see new faces there, thats a great sign. so next weekend is the ferona vei show at the roxy..that should be an awesome night i cant effen wait.well in conclusion..lol..english payed off.lol. im kinda tired, full, bored, wish i could go running but my back hurts, miss my mommy..she is in hawaii. hmm oh i know what im going to do this weekend, go to pats and lay on his floor and wiggle around for awhile then get up and go run around and find a girl that will give me a piggy back ride..

a kiss would be nice.E>
cory

its a good one today.

Tue, 08 Feb 2005 23:45:23 GMT

ok..so i have been extremely tired lately...actually im so tired to the point were im falling asleep constantly at school. i have had to go pee like every hour in like the last 5 days..lol i think im pregnant. so life is good, new motorcycle is on its way...hippppyyyyy i cant CANT wait. hmm so what else is new, um friends are good,,got lots of those, but im missing something, and i cant put my finger on it. well this weekend was okay i guess, not that fun. im really starting to miss my old life, but when that orange ktm is started up and im on it riding through the desert down a rough wooped out section or dirt...i will be hole again. my old life is at my finger tips and i can almost touch it. so no gf or girl in my life right now, i want one, im ready..lol i think some people think im desprite but in all honest im fare from desprite. im more of im ready, for someone to come, not like ill take anyone..no not that at all. i actually cant stand the girls i have been with in the past and i have been waiting for that right one..i thought i had found one but she thought different towards me,,its hard not to have feelings, and trying to hide them are even harder, ill i can say is in her eyes it wasnt ment to be and now im just waiting for the next right girl to pop up in my life.

-cory mike-

Mon, 07 Feb 2005 23:08:40 GMT

blah blah blah blah BLAH

im hungry blah blah blah blah

im tired blah blah blah blah

im sick of everyone blah blah blah blah

MY DAY. ~~BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH~~

-JIM Jr.-

aka. ~~CORY~~

for now i will wait tell she comes out and says it.

Sun, 06 Feb 2005 05:30:14 GMT

well things are going really good.. i sold my motorcycle and im getting my new one here in the next week or so. God has been strong in my life lately which is so important. I met a girl, who i like, but there is this ofter girl which i like a lot but i dont know if she wants to go anywhere with it before its to late. well superbowl is tomorrow..gay,!! but i get to play football and i will have fun at that. so all i can say right now is i wish she just would tell how her heart really feels, it would mean a lot. funny thing is when i look into her eyes i cant help but smile and turn my head before that feeling you get in your stomach hurts to much from being captivated by how much you are taken away by that person.

i will take it as it comes.

-cory mike-

Sun, 30 Jan 2005 09:08:42 GMT

ok so i was looking forward to hanging out with someone this weekend but that didnt happen...to much to explain all i can say is..being hurt and liking someone that doesnt like you stinks. didnt get to hangout with troy as much as i wanted to, !!! im wishing i had someone to turn to and hug but i dont. happy that god is in my life. but u know what good people are supposed to feel down...lol it in the job descreption. damn..so i rented a movie to watch with someone this weekend and now i have to watch it alone..but ill just call someone.lol so im honestly looking for the right girl..im so ready for a gf..not even funny man. i think this one girl at school is way cute, oh yeah.!!

well just got done going throught about 10 different emotions in 1 hour......world record. talked to Troy about everything, and all he could say is how me and him r going to find HOT EMO GIRLS , lol thanks man thats so true.

ladies and gentlemen..three words of advice, women are complecated. they can change there whole things for u in one night...trust me..not fun!!!!

-cory mike-

Sun, 30 Jan 2005 02:37:35 GMT

Tue, 25 Jan 2005 00:38:07 GMT

um ok so today was cool...finals were easy peassy.!! im so looking forward to the 4 day weekend. i need a girl friend...wait no i dont!! but it would be nice to have someone to hang with and share your thoughts with...

well what do i write now...um im online talking.! i ate lunch and had pasta and salad.woof

ok so my feelings are of the walls right now....lol uncontrollable.............yikes

-cory mike-

p.s. yeah i im single....muhahahah

Sun, 23 Jan 2005 19:13:31 GMT

ok so WINTER FORMAL was yesterday i had fun,it was a nice night. kinda disappointed at something,,,but oh well. today is my birthday yay !! big 17 . i dont even feel like its my birthday but yeah.

- cory mike-

p.s. thanks for all the happy birthday calls people...i love my true friends.